Is This My Whole Story?
There is no doubt that my blog is centred on mental health. I have touched on everything from eating disorders to anxiety to body dysmorphia, with a little lifestyle content thrown in there for good measure. I love sharing my story with all of you for two reasons that I know I have mentioned before: 1) writing is incredibly therapeutic for me, and expressing my thoughts (both positive and negative) through writing has gotten me through the toughest of times. And 2) sharing my story has allowed me to connect with many of my readers and I hope that I have helped you overcome some tough times, too.
That being said, I was having a conversation with a friend the other day about our stories and how we both have mental health journeys that have started but not yet finished. It got me thinking: most of my posts on this blog and on my social media channels have ties to some form of mental health issue. While normally I am quite proud of what I put out there, and see value in advocating for mental health, I was beginning to second-guess myself.
Is mental health my whole story?
I started to think about who I am as a person. What defines me, currently, as a newly thirty-year-old? Well, I have my career. I whole-heartedly enjoy my work at the learning centre and also the work I do in social media. I have my apartment, which I still love, as I truly feel that it is the biggest marker of my independence. I have a wonderful family and wonderful friends that support me and make me laugh.
But I also (still) have the one biggest hurdle in my life - my eating disorder. My eating disorder dictates a lot of my daily decisions, even to this day. A lot goes into simple choices involving things like food and even water intake. I use this platform to share my story in an incredibly realistic way, and I try not to sugarcoat anything. I have reached a lot of diverse people through doing so, but recently I began to wonder - will I be "labeled" as a mental health writer and advocate for the rest of my life? (I'm totally all for mental health advocates, and just to be clear, I am the one labelling myself as such. But what if, at some point down the road, I want to branch out?).
Truth be told, I have a lot of short-term goals. Most of the time, though, long-term overwhelms me, so I try and refrain from spending too many hours obsessing over (or fearing?) my future. But every now and again, I think about this blog. What will this online space become if I want to develop it into something more than a platform for eating disorder recovery?
I think my resolution to this self-made "problem" is that, like with many things in life, I'll cross that bridge when I get there. For now, a lot of my daily living does involve mental health, whether it be anorexia, anxiety, or a whole range of other issues that I confront on a weekly basis. However, some of my life right now is actually centred on "healthier" things like work, socializing, and self-care, and I do try and include those aspects into my weekly blogs as well. So, after much thought, I share with you my conclusion: I will continue to blog about whatever I'm experiencing at the moment. Whether that's something mental health-related or not. I'm open to evolving into something more and branching outside of my comfort zone, but there is a time and a place for everything, I suppose.
So, with that being said, I hope you enjoyed my little ramble. I think it's important not to label ourselves as one thing or another, and also be open to changing as life takes its course. But just as important is finding your niche; somewhere where you feel comfortable, even if it is temporary.
Hope you all had a wonderful weekend.