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Festive Chewy Gingerbread Molasses Cookies

Festive Chewy Gingerbread Molasses Cookies

Hello cold weather!

Whatever holiday you celebrated this season, I hope that it was joyful, merry, and full of laughter. Although this time of year can be incredibly stressful and overwhelming, I did have a couple of good moments with my family, which is more than I ever could have asked for. I hope you were able to cherish some sort of "good" from the past few weeks.

Now that the hustle and bustle is over, I wanted to take the time to get into the kitchen and bake. I also figured that there was no better cookie for the holidays than a gingerbread molasses cookie, so that is what I set out to create!

I have to say that I was blessed with a lot of new kitchen tools and appliances this Christmas, which makes me even more excited to come up with flavourful and fun recipes for you all. Part of the recovery process for me is cooking, whether it be sweet or savoury, and actually eating the food that I make. In this way, I rely a whole lot less on nutrition labels, and truly have no idea about the calories in the meals, snacks, and desserts that I cook. Although this does cause me anxiety, it is a good step in letting go of the control associated with my eating disorder. 

I also want to say that my body image is at an all time low this week. The holidays are filled with foods (and drinks) that I don't normally consume on a daily basis, which amplifies all kinds of negative thoughts I have about my body. But, I'm trying to remind myself that I can't put a pause on recovery or, even worse, fall backwards because I was pushed out of my comfort zone. My doctor in New York used to always tell me to be a "reminding machine" - I need to constantly give myself the words of encouragement I need in order to push through. 

To all of you out there who struggle with weight or body image thoughts before, during, or after the holidays, you're not alone. Most of us are in this weird period where the craziness has died down and we are left sitting here, thinking: "now what?". 

It might seem counterintuitive that I am providing you with a cookie recipe during a time when we have already been eating more than we usually do (and may or may not be feeling uncomfortable with that), but I guess that's the point I'm trying to make. That cookies, for example, are not good or bad. They will not lead to direct weight gain. Instead, they are meant to provide us with happiness in the purest and simplest form, which is honestly what food is "supposed to" do. 

So, happy holidays my friends. I hope you enjoy these festive chewy gingerbread molasses cookies around the fireplace with coffee and loved ones (or, on the beach, if you're one of those lucky ones escaping the cold!). 


FESTIVE GINGERBREAD MOLASSES COOKIES

Makes 8-10 large cookies

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Ingredients

  • 1 and 1/4 cups of flour
  • 1/4 cup of brown sugar
  • 1/4 cup of molasses
  • 1/4 cup of applesauce
  • 1 egg
  • 1 tsp. baking soda
  • 1 tsp. vanilla extract
  • 1/4 tsp. nutmeg
  • 1/2 tsp. cloves
  • 1/2 tsp. cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp. ginger (or allspice if you ran out of ginger, like me!)

Directions

  • Preheat your oven to 350 degrees. 
  • In a medium-sized bowl, whisk together the egg, brown sugar, molasses, applesauce, and vanilla. 
  • In a larger bowl, combine flour, baking soda, nutmeg, cloves, cinnamon, and ginger. 
  • Add wet ingredients to the dry ingredients and mix well. 
  • Place dough in the fridge for 10-15 minutes (otherwise, the dough will be too sticky). 
  • Roll into golfball-sized balls and place on a greased cookie sheet. 
  • Bake for approximately 10 minutes (time depends on size of the cookies). 
  • ENJOY!

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