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Banana Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Muffins (aka my first recipe!)

Banana Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Muffins (aka my first recipe!)

Baking is something I love to do. For as long as I can remember, I have always enjoyed spending time in the kitchen, creating sweets and treats for myself and my loved ones. When my eating disorder started to develop, and continued to progress, this "relationship" I had with baking became messy and complicated. I started baking for others, but would never allow myself to partake in enjoying any of it. If I were to "give in" and eat some of the dough or batter (because really, that is the best part!), I would restrict my food intake before or after to compensate. I no longer enjoyed baking because it brought about intense anxiety; would I be able to RESIST eating what I had baked?

Now that I live in my own apartment, and feel settled enough in my recovery, I decided to get into my kitchen again. I have lived at my current place for over a year, but quite honestly, I have never baked anything until recently. It saddens me to think that I prevented myself from doing something I love, all because of my eating disorder. 

So this past Sunday, I got busy. I started baking. 

My goal is to provide you with baked goods that are what I call "semi-healthy". Now, let me explain myself a little. I previously wrote a blog post called "Why I Don't Treat Myself (and what I do instead)" (https://www.recoverybymeghan.com/home/treats) - where I explained that I don't agree with this whole trendy "cheat day" phase. Rather, if we are craving something, whether it be cake or pizza, we need to enjoy it without guilt and without compensatory behaviours (as long as we keep everything in moderation). 

Truth be told, I am still "fresh" from my discharge from inpatient treatment, and I am not ready to be eating full-fat, full-sugar sweets ALL the time. There is nothing WRONG with doing so, but I am aware of where I'm at in my recovery journey and I want to be honest with all of you, too. So, I created this recipe for muffins that are on the healthy side, but are still full of flavour. They can be enjoyed for breakfast, dessert, or as a mid-afternoon snack (with a cup of coffee or tea of course!). I don't want this recipe to contradict what I wrote about in my previous post. Rather, these muffins will be eaten in a way to COMPLIMENT and BALANCE foods that are a little more rich and challenging for me. 

Alright, enough babble! Here is the recipe. ENJOY!


BANANA OATMEAL CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFINS

Makes 10-12 muffins

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Ingredients

  • 2 ripe bananas

  • 2 eggs

  • 2 cups of oats

  • 1 cup of Greek yogurt (plain)

  • 8 tsp. applesauce

  • 10 tsp. brown sugar

  • 1 tsp. vanilla

  • 1 tsp. baking powder

  • 1/2 tsp. baking soda

  • 1 cup of chocolate chips

Directions

  • Preheat your oven to 400 degrees.

  • Beat the 2 eggs in a large bowl.

  • Mash the 2 bananas and add to the eggs.

  • Combine the rest of the ingredients (except the chocolate chips) and mix well.

  • Fold in the chocolate chips.

  • Fill a greased/sprayed muffin tin with the batter, about 3/4 of the way full.

  • Bake for approximately 15 minutes, or until toothpick comes out clean.

  • Enjoy!


Simple enough, right? Let me know in the comments if you made the muffins (and if you liked them!) This is the first recipe I have created from scratch, so I do welcome (constructive!) feedback. Also, let me know if you would like to see more recipes like this. Do we have a new blog series on our hands? Baking by Meghan? I'm curious to hear your feedback!

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